6-30-13
My dad once told me, if you want to get somewhere in life
you have to stick with one thing. Well, see my intension span had far too much
variety for me to just pick one. I wanted to have talents and skills in every subject
or field. This made me feel greedy . to this day I don’t excel in any one
subject, I’m just mediocre at all of them. Satisfying enough, though.
7-1-13
Today, I went to get blood work done. I hate blood work.
It’s not the needle prick that worries me. Instead, it’s the anticipation that
any second, you’re going to get stabbed. I
try to look away but my attention betrays me as I suddenly glance over
for a second hoping to not see any blood. Blood—easy recipe for faintness and
dizziness. Also, this is part one of a two-day challenge of anxiety ridden
days, so I’m glad it’s like half time now.
7-2-13
Part 2 of the challenge: anxiety is like walking on a poorly
paved sidewalk—there’s cracks and bumps but you just have to keep hopping over
them and move on to the next thing. When anxiety is good it’s a sunny day
however if anxiety isn’t kind it might feel like a roller coaster or like
walking on a tight rope. Overall, this challenge wasn’t as bad as I thought it
would be. And the words come across the screen like in Mortal Kombat: FINISH
HIM!!, Anxiety zero; Me one.
7-6-13
I like to take photos of nature and some animals around my
neighborhood. The thing about photography is: It’s like fishing; you have to
wait for the right opportunity to get your best shot. Also, it is so hot
outside, a heat wave, and I went to get water at 8 o clock in the evening and
it was still 89 degrees. Talk about escaping the heat; I’m glad we have air
conditioning.
7-10-13
I love to relax. I can just lay down, fold my hands and just
breathe in and out very slowly. Relaxing is a great part of my day. It is
important to relax because without it, your body may get worn out, but with it
you can take breaks and live in the moment one step at a time. I love
relaxation.
7-13-13
Life is full of opportunity! It comes in the form of
challenges, obstacles, and decisions. We have the power to shape our futures.
We are what we become and we become who we are. Furthermore, confidence is the
battery that charges our destiny. Life is what we make of it—so get out there
and do something productive.
7-15-13
Music is awesome! I like a whole variety of genres
including: rock; metal; hardcore; alternative; dubstep; djent; rap; pop and
contemporary Christian. I keep a large collection of music for the purpose of
flexibility. If I am in a good mood then maybe Christian or soft rock, however,
I may want to be pumped up so I would choose metal, hardcore or djent. Maybe,
I’m exploring new dubstep or techno or maybe, some new alternative or an indie
group—I’m always interested in something new because I keep an open mind. By
the way, the term for someone like this is: audiophile.
7-16-13
There’s one part of life that I hate—waiting. Whether I’m in
a waiting room or waiting for a video to load on the internet, It’s waiting and
it’s boring. Some things I can do when I’m waiting are: read; listen to music;
draw; or go on mobile Facebook (LOL). I wish waiting rooms all had timers on
them telling each person when their wait is over and they can go back past reception.
I would design them as the shape of a ticking grenade. That way the longer you
wait, the more anticipation you will have to get through. “Oh no, my waiting
grenade is smoking—is it defective or am I up next?” (LOL).
7-17-13
Life is a sale! If you don’t sell yourself well enough, you
run the risk of failure. We spend our lives selling and competing against each
other to try and win the larger paycheck or more valuable career. However,
contrary to this statement, wisdom is caused by countless cases of failure.
Hence the saying: if you lose, you gain knowledge, if you win you gain
satisfaction. Either way there’s something out there for you, go and find it.
7-20-13
I have learned over the years to always live in the moment.
If you are dwelling on the past you will live in regret or if you are too
vigilant of the future, you will live in constant worry. In my opinion, the
best way to achieve relaxation is through mindfulness. Mindfulness means living
in the present, taking one step at a time. This is what I believe and what has
worked throughout my recovery.
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